despite my lack-of-faith-misgivings, i actually set foot in a church today. now before you think that i, too, am two-faced, let me assure you, i didn’t go to church – i simply attended a function at the request of a friend that was being held in her honor at a church. and once again, i was not surprised by the obvious displays of “do as i say, not as i do” and complete disregard for approaching everything one does by first asking “what would jesus do?”
or maybe i was.
because today i was seemingly judged by not those that would be presumed my peers, but by children. literal children. any woman my age would actually consider girls that are in the 12-16 set children, so yeah – children judged me today. on what, exactly, i don’t know. nor do i care. but to be walking by a kid whilst minding my own business and have that look shot in my general direction… you know, that “omg, where does she shop? old ladies r us?” or that “wow, she is soooo fat” look from head to toe (and i should interrupt myself for a moment here to note that i am at the extreme low end of my bmi table for my height/weight and was wearing an outfit purchased at dillards) is just completely uncalled for.
what is with parents today? why do your little girls think it’s alright to look a stranger up and down with such obvious disdain? especially you church-going parents – those of you who are supposed to be raising children of god. let me tell you something; despite my current state of non-faith, i was raised in a church. by seemingly god-fearing parents. among other god-fearing parents who were also raising children of god. and if i had given one of my elders a look like i got today and my parents’ got word of it? hell hath no fury, man. i’d've been toast.
*by the by… i’ve once again been distracted lately and realized only today that the last few posts had been written and saved rather than written and published. my bad. thanks to those of you who let me know it seemed to have been awhile since you’d heard from me.*
who do you think you are?