should i stay or should i go? who do i listen to? my friend who tells me that someone at the office is desperate to be rid of me and harasses the boss constantly about it (and was so proud of his efforts he told her about it)? or the boss who says to everyone in general (but not me in particular) that he dearly loves every one of us?
i know the ultimate answer is i should go. it’s not really going to get any better, and it’s certainly going to get worse. much worse.
but here’s the thing: if i go on my terms now (or now-ish) then there is absolutely no hope whatsoever of anyone there giving me a good reference. my reputation will be completely trashed. i’ll be passed off as “unprofessional” and “immature” and “unable to handle responsibility” and “unwilling to follow directions.” and the one person that might maybe possibly have given me nothing more than a professional reference is also the one person that i’ve (at this point, if i were to go) actually lied to by saying i wasn’t looking elsewhere.
the alternatives then are to a) leave after finding alternate employment at some employer that’s comfortable enough with me at the interview to not require i reveal my current employer. or b) screw around long enough to get fired.
keen.
between a rock and a hard place